The Hate Circuit

Could it be that it's more normal to loathe others than ourselves? Apparently, the scientists have discovered a circuit in the brain responsible for hating. When someone becomes depressed, that circuit decouples and hating others turns to hating ourselves.

I wonder if my circuit was lighting up today, when I opened the door to a group of thirty something women in tight bright dresses and smelling of cigarettes and booze. I was trying desparately not to be judgemental and put the hate on, but I wasn't feeling too friendly either. I don't particularly like letting in people - perhaps its my own paranoia or maybe I'm just feeling protective of that little tadpole inside me.  The women must have known how I feeling - I heard a little meow from one of them as I headed away to the elevator. I could've barked back.

I'm trying to be a less judgemental person both to others and to myself. So when the man on the elevator said to me after the women got off, "They're some classy ladies," I replied, "It looks like they're going to have some fun tonight."

I suspect my hate circuit wasn't lighting up like the only block with power in a blackout, but it certaintly also wasn't my proudest moment.